Comments by "" (@ganndalf202) on "How did you pass JLPT N1?" video.

Thank you so much for this. I really can relate to the german woman. I too wished I started sooner. Well, in my case, it was about learning. I was learning japanese as teenager but then I stopped because everyone told me to focus on western languages more and live in west. And that's what I did, I gave up on japanese, despite me wanting to go to Japan for a long time and I regret it a lot. Living in western countries isn't for everyone. And the worst part is that there is a stereotype that everyone will fit in there. But I never did, I lived in the west because of the opportunites that my country will never have but I suffered and was unhappy. The thing is that everyone expect to fit in in western countries and those who actually don't will blame themselves that there is something wrong with them. Like in Japan for example people know it's difficult because of the culture and society but if you don't fit in the west you will blame youself why can't you fit somewhere where everyone does and I thought there was something wrong with me for years because of that. So now that I'm making friends from the distance with Japanese and I got back to studying japanese again, I will just wait till Japan opens and just try to come. So I too regret that I was scared of Japan because everyone said so. But then again, maybe if I came when I was younger, I would be probably idiolizing Japan too much like a lot of people do and be disappointed, hard to say. But I'm glad to see I'm not the only one who has similiar feelings in your videos. I see a lot of foreigners with similar mindset like I do and I don't feel so out of place.
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@alessandromike9684 Thank you, you too and if you don't find your happiness, it will be still worth the experience. Learning about different cultures and experiencing them instead of being stuck in your own cultural bubble will help you grow as a person.
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@alessandromike9684 I understand that very much. I'm from east europe, the economy here was always bad so a lot of east europeans know a lot of languages because the only decent jobs here are those for foreign companies. That's how I ended up living in west as well. The pay was good but I always felt lonely. I'm an extrovert and yet unless i was being a people pleaser, I could never keep friendships with westerners, to the point I was so lonely I started with self harm. I hated the food, the treatment I got. Not everyone knows but there is a hierarchy in Europe and you are treated in a certain way depending on where you are born. That's why you see a lot of east europeans and russians in japan. We have destroyed economy, war and a lot of us don't have the drive and aggressiveness that you need to survive in the west. In west you need to buldoze through people or be a people pleaser if you want to be happy. Yes, i could wear blue hair but i didn't fit in anyways. As for your fear, I understand it, look through youtube and see what experiences people have, maybe try to make some Japanese friends through twitter or gaming and think about it if you can handle being away for a long time. As for me, now because of the war, we all have lost everything, you have nothing to lose if you don't have anything and I was always lonely so it's nothing that would be new to me even if it would be hard for me there.
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