Comments by "Peter deWolf" (@StoneShards) on "I Want to Quit but I Have to be Strong: And It's Not Easy" video.

  1. Hmm...preparing for attack?! Personally, I deal with everything as "attack" in nature, though not necessarily in intent. As an independent being, Nature's purpose is to "delineate" me, to "define" me resistively, by opposing my existence. I take no offense, simply exercising the true meaning of "kung fu": good working, or, in my terms, "practice makes perfect". I conduct myself in accordance, to maximize my performance. However, in the presence of malicious intent, I BECOME NATURE!!! I am LAW!!! There is no other AUTHORITY than ME!!! Following such instinctual conviction, I am either invincible or non-existent--and, in the moment, I can't afford to care, one way or the other which. So, I very often practice grokking the intent of others, extending my awareness to very small things, to gather clues. So, being in public is very strenuous for me, especially as quarters become more cramped (I'm a little claustrophobic, too). I'm extremely polite and quiet--to start; but, my back gets up with alarming alacrity. I don't fly off the handle, but I get...peaked/ready when my personal space is compressed. I pick anatomical targets well in advance of dangerously closed distance to target. That's what I call "preparing for attack". I'm continuously assessing my "situation"; and running over everything I know (or think I know) for accuracy, validity, and applicability. I AM perpetually occupied--but I wouldn't say, "busy". I feel ready.
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