Comments by "p11" (@porky1118) on "HealthyGamerGG" channel.

  1. Kind of the same. I could resist laughing, but I had to grin very hard.
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  2. 40:00 It's easier to get motivated, if I want it myself. But it's easier to stay motivated if there is someone who is looking forward to see new progress.
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  3. 14:35 I also thought about that for a bit. Even if you break up with someone, they will eventually find someone else. And in order to find someone else, and then also stay in that relationship for some time, they probably have to improve. It's like multiple persons find partners, which are just fine, but have some problems. Then they are exchanged, and now everyone has partners, who are better, at least most of them. So why can't my partner just change to the better while still being in a relationship with me? Because they have to learn that a relationship is something you could lose. You can lose your partner forever. So even if you improve as a person, and go back to the same partner, you won't really realize how much you can lose by messing up. And as long as one hasn't experienced that, they might not be able to make some real effort.
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  4. 7 red flags: 1. They always disagree with you 2. You know everything from their life, there are no secrets 3. They always prioritize you, even if there is something important in their life going on 4. They always praise you, even if you say stupid things 5. They never get jealous, implying you're not that important to them 6. You know always, how much they love you, but without being clingy. Probably a psychopath. 7. They talk good about their exes I don't necessarily see it this way. I just tried to find reasonable opposites of the list in the video. I think, it kind of works as well.
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  5. 20:08 That's also my take on multi tasking. I like, when I have more open tasks. So when I get stuck at one task, I can go to another task first. Maybe I can also delegate some open tasks I don't like or I don't feel like I'm good at them to other people. And when I get back to them myself, I often am better at them. Maybe my subconscious mind solved the problem already. Maybe I had a tunnel vision on that problem after working too much on that. Maybe I learnt something important when working on some other stuff, which can also be applied to the other problem. Maybe I've just been too tired or in the wrong mood that day.
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  6. Also reminds me of this quote by Confucius: By three methods we may learn wisdom: First, by reflection, which is noblest; Second, by imitation, which is easiest; and third by experience, which is the bitterest.
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  7.  @Ari-ne2yb  Isn't that basically what's supposed to happen after you marry?
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  8.  @Elrog3  Good advice, but doesn't always work.
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  9. 3:00 The task I'm currently doing is writing, which most of the is easier than most other tasks I'd do (programming, drawing, creating 3D characters) And I write multiple stories at once, so if I don't know further in one story, I just switch to another one. I always choose the one I'm most motivated in or where I know clearly how to progress. So whenever I get an idea, I write it down as exactly as it's currently in my mind. When I'm motivated I think of a general plan on what should happen in some specific story. When I'm not that motivated, I write stories, which I already wrote down in an abstract way before. When I'm not motilated at all, I just proofread existing stories and mark them an finished. Each accomplished task keeps my motivation going or even increases it, so it never stops completely. I have a overcomplicated system to manage all this, which sometimes forces me to focus on another story, which motivates me even more to write more stories. I have to continue writing stories, I started, in order to be allowed to start new stories. And I have to start writing new stories or continue short stories in order to be allowed to continue existing stories. I even wrote a small program to show me how many stories are allowed to be started and how scenes each story is allowed to have by now. So when I actively forbid myself to write something I want, I want to write it all the more. Usually I would just start writing that and realize it's too difficult, and motivation goes down. What now happens instead, I write what I'm not that motivated in, in order to be able to write again what I really want to write. This way the motivation doesn't go down when it's difficult. I write other stories which I also want to get out there, the motivation to write the stories I really want to grows and grows and I get new ideas. So when I'm allowed to write it again, the motivation is usually higher. Or sometimes I'm still more motivated to continue writing the other story which is not allowed anymore, and only write it in order to be able to write other stories. And I have different systems which encourage me to write more. The more I have written in advance, the more I'm allowed to publish. I'm not allowed to just publish everything just after I finished. And I'm only allowed to publish scenes of the story which has the most stories written in advance, so if I want to publish a specific scene as soon as possible, I also have to continue writing that specific story. It sounds unneccessary, but it works pretty well. And this way I'll be getting all interesting ideas I ever had, out without having to finish anything.
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  10.  @zeropolicy7456  That might be the main reason, why I'd like to have a woman in my life.
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  11. 2:25 I hope this is not meant to become something like "There are cases where abortion is reasonable, so abortion should be generally allowed".
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  12. The horns are really distracting. They don't stop moving...
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  13. 1:00 "I always work my hardest" might already be the problem. Even if you like your job, this might not always be the best idea. You will probably work better than if you didn't work your hardest that day, but your average will go down a lot when you're just exhausted and start feeling miserable.
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  14. 39:50 That's why I have problems getting into most online communities. I mostly post critical stuff. If I like a community, I'm even more critical or at least can point out more exactly, where I disagree. It's more like, I'd like to be part of that community, but if there's something I disagree, I have to get it out there.
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  15. I'd say, I love myself. Or at least I like myself. I don't fall in love with myself, though, and miss myself, when I didn't meet myself for some days.
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  16. 34:00 I know this. Sometimes I talked online to someone about a problem, they have. After trying to help them, I often wonder, why I don't do this myself.
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  17. Maybe trying too hard to make people happy makes you sad.
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  18. When I found out you could create video games yourself, I knew I wanted to do that. Even long before, when I was still in Kindergarten I already started to draw some game maps on papers, which I let family members "play" (they had to move their fingers along the paper; inspired by Zelda guides, where I "played" the game the same way, when I didn't play it for real). I also played stories inspired by Mario and Zelda when outside. Some of my adventures had some interesting concepts, like all the boss rooms became part of the boss tower. So after finding out, I thought about how games would work internally. And it didn't seem too difficult. What would you have to tell some computer if a character jumps into water? It just switches controls if the character is below the surface. And when in school, I started programming (I didn't learn much of the programming in school itself, mostly at home). First Game Maker for some years, then I experimented using popular languages like Java (which we had to learn at school), C++ and Go, then I stuck with Common lisp for a few years, which is where I probably learnt the most, and then I stopped losing interest because it's inefficient by default, and had another phase of trying and learning a lot of programming languages, until I got into Rust, which I now use for most of my private projects. At the end of my Lisp phase, I also became kind of depressed and didn't see a reason in gamedev anymore. Games could never be as accurate as reality. Also because of being in university and some personal identity problems and some unhealthy lifestyle. Besides that, I work as a game developer now using Unity, which I never used in private before :)
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  19. 8:00 When I talk to people anonymously online, I already do it that way. I don't know them, I don't really care about them. Not sure, if I really had a conversation about that specific topic. But I'd probably say something like that: "Yeah, you're right. There is no purpose in life. So suicide sounds like an easy way out. I also kind of thought about suicide some time ago. But I didn't really see a reason. I can also just wait until I die. Life isn't that bad, and nowadays I'm even pretty happy. If I really considered killing myself, I'd rather just try dangerous stuff, I wouldn't normally do, maybe dangerous stuff, which could kill me, or criminal stuff or talking to women in public..."
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  20. So that's why I sometimes get more motivated after masturbation in the evening. Afterwards the dopamine is pretty low and the adenocine gets higher. I'm not easy to motivate by small things, so I'll only be motivated by something interesting. Or worse: I don't get motivated by anything anymore and also can't sleep.
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  21. I like, when Dr. K does not say, what everyone already thinks. 13:18 "So you think, he wanted to see you because he needed a break..." I'd say, "And you are sure, he wasn't interested in a romantic relationship? Men never meet good looking girls without intention."
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  22. 14:30 I like, when people look like goblins :)
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  23. I totally agree about Jimmy's view about victims. I've not been a victim, I had a fine childhood and caring parents, but being a victim never helps in the long term. Ok, some people at school made fun of me. I didn't change and they didn't stop. I hated them. But when I got older I recognized, I've been a weird person (still am in some ways) and should maybe have worked more on my social skills. In some ways I liked and still like to be special in some way. It wasn't a bad thing, they bullied me. It also didn't happen too often. I think, if people make fun of you, it's also some kind of therapy. You are forced to stand up for yourself or learn not to care about other people that much. That might be a reason I don't care a lot about other peoples opinions, which is a good thing in my opinion. But I never cared much about what other people think, so probably nothing to do with that...
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  24. 9:40 That's what I sometimes had when playing Gitaroo Man (basically a rythm game). It gets so hard and there's some section in the Gregorio level, Master mode, where I always failed. But after playing it probably dozens of times, I sometimes was able to make it without a miss. It only lasted a few seconds, but that must be a pretty extreme variant of the flow state.
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  25. So this is not about the Visual Novel?
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  26. I'm programming on some private project while listening to you. While you were talking about helplessness, I lost the hope, that what I'm doing will lead anywhere, so I now have an excuse to play video games. :P
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  27. 20:30 Doesn't work for me like this. If there is a small task, I'm not really motivated to do it. I just think "It's so easy to do that. I could also do it tomorrow.", "I don't have to clean my room up now, I will have to do it tomorrow again anyway.", "I was planning only 20 push ups per week. And it's Moday. I still have some days left. And 20 per week won't affect me anyway.", "I could finish writing my tool now, but I don't even know what I will do then, so I'll just ". The task needs to be huge enough to get me motivated. And when I'm motivated, it will not just be a side task, but my main task for that day. I want to finish it, no matter what. I have to think, it's difficult to get it done, but it should be possible this day/week/month. But in order to finish it, I first have to do this and that and whatever. So I start working, I want to finish it, since I know, I won't when I stop once. I do the first step, the second step, and after some time I realize, I can't do it, it's not worth it, my motivation is suddenly gone. But suddenly my room is mostly clean, and I reordered a few things, even if I didn't get to move my furniture around. Suddenly I'm pretty muscular, even if I only fulfilled half of the intended training I planned. I finished writing some tools and libraries which I can be used for a lot of applications and learnt a few libraries and programming techniques, even if I didn't finish creating the program I originally intended.
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  28. Is it possible to be mostly wind and stone? It seems like they are opposites and the mix would be fire. But I can relate to both. I always work on multiple projects, and often switch projects. But all of my projects are related in some way, and I start slowly and try to make everything correctly. I often take longer to make something, but in the end, it might end up better than alternatives. But if I get stuck, I also switch projects and can't stay motivated for long.
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  29. 9:35 I see where this is going. I've been pretty shy, and my mom took a lot of responsibility of things. I still gave my presents to the other person myself, but she always bought it, most of the time without my involvement. Sometimes I prepared something myself, but she still gave the inspiration. Nowadays, when there is a birthday, I don't really care if I have a gift. If I think of it, I tell someone to buy me something. If there's nobody who buys me something, I might buy something myself, but if I'm not forced by someone else or didn't make a clear promise, I won't buy something. And that doesn't only apply to birthdays. I got most of my friends because my mom invited them. I didn't find friends in Kindergarten by myself. I was just walking around and counting up to 100 until the time was up and I could go home again. And nowadays, most of the time I hope other people to do stuff. If someone expects something from me, I might do it. But I almost never do anything I'm not really into by myself. It's even difficult for me to do things I want. But why just me? My brothers are not like this. At least one of them. Not sure about the other one yet. I assume because I've been shy and my brothers haven't been. Even if I'm not shy anymore, my parents probably did more things for me because I was.
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  30. 17:48 „Did your parents even maintain relationships“ Not really. My dad basically doesn't have any friends. And my mom has a few friends, but most of the time is happy if she can stay at home alone.
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  31. 32:50 I don't even have a smartphone anymore and don't really get into conversations at parties or alike.
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  32. It's easy to find someone on the internet to connect to? It has been easy for me, but I have no idea how to anymore. Probably because it's so easy to block them.
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  33. I almost never read books because I want to get better in some way. It's for entertainment reasons mostly. Or to get some common ground with someone. And sometimes when I have a very specific problem, but in this case I normally don't read a book, I look it up, maybe in a book.
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  34. 20:20 I often play games while watching YouTube. This can really be useful, if the game and the content apply to different parts of my mind. Often I play difficult games without narration, where I have to focus a lot on the gameplay, while watching someone mostly just talking, so I don't really have to watch. Just listening to someone talk might get boring. Just playing difficult games might get annoying. Both at once can be very addictive. Currently I'm playing some sports game while watching this. I don't have to look at the game most of the time and just repeat my boxing moves and feel the rumble when I hit correctly.
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  35. He's a psychologist. He knows how people react in certain situations. But if you sometimes spend time with other people, you probably could have guessed it yourself, when thinking about it.
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  36. But you could activate the bell, so you won't miss any content. That's even better than subscribing twice.
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  37. 6:30 Sounds like the fiat system causes ADHD. Or more accurately, the fiat system increases the time preference, which correlates with ADHD.
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  38. I just noticed, I didn't subscribe to you yet :o I know your videos for months, I guess.
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  39. I have a similar problem. I don't even write that often. Maybe once a month or less often. And only a few sentences, maybe up to three per message. You can't be so busy to not even answer a message once per month, can you? Maybe she didn't see it, because I don't use her main messaging tool, when I wrote the message, maybe she saw it but was tired and then forgot about it, maybe she misinterpreted something I wrote, since my messages are short and when reading something it's difficult to get the intention (if something is meant to be a joke or something serious), and so gets skeptical about me (probably an unreasonable fear. She knows, how I am in person). Or maybe she is lying, when she says, she likes our meetings. I also kind of have the fear, she has some issues with really doing what she wants. She often does things, she doesn't really want, because she feels obligated to do things, other people seem to expect from her. So I'm not sure, if she would like to meet more often, if she wasn't so busy, or if she just meets me because she feels obligated to after having a few nice meetings some years ago. And now she tries to stop our contact without hurting me or getting into a difficult situation herself?
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  40. It gets even worse when I try to "fix" it using caffeine (normally coke in my case).
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  41. 55:45 I think, the main problem is not, if he would do this again, but why he did it in the first place. If anyone can come away with something like this, other people, who would theoretically want to do this, might be motivated to do it for real. Maybe it would really be interesting to kill a human or to do other brutal stuff to some. If I just stay in jail for 8 years, maybe I should just do it ;)
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  42. I was sitting still a few minutes more. And I restarted from the beginning after I had to move after the first minute. But I couldn't resist to laugh when you were counting down. I didn't care when you counted down so slowly. I even found it funnier because I didn't care. And I also did not resist when you said, it will take more than three minutes. I didn't have that much going on. A few catchy tunes in my head from the games I just played. And the urge to do some training. And in the end the urge to write this comment. But sitting was too relaxing to start immediately.
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  43. 20:00 I instinctively do it correct. I normally think "I'm fat. I could do a bit more exercise (some day)." ;)
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  44. 9:20 I just thought, "oh no, he has to read these headers in English language" Then I remembered the whole video is English.
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  45. 1:30 Sounds like he is Peter Keating :P
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  46.  @zeropolicy7456  No problem. I also tend to write pretty long posts sometimes :) And I totally agree. I especially like that you take evolution into account. Most people just seem to have no idea what evolution practically means. I think, that's also the reason why most important discoveries are done by men. Even if having a companion might help to stay motivated, not having a companion might be a motivation to create something great, so people will pay attention to me. That's probably doesn't really help for finding a woman as a man. Having some goal is probably enough. Women don't have to be successful to find a man. If they look only slightly good, they have almost free choice. I'm also pretty good to stay motivated for some time without a companion if I think it's worth it. But if I work on some project for months, some program I think to be useful, and then I post it somewhere, it can be pretty frustrating if not a single person really cares. My current hobby, writing short continuation stories and posting them, works better. Even if there's not a lot of feedback, I know that most of my stories are read by multiple persons.
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  47. I can relate to this guy. I don't have many friends, and when I talk to people online, they also often stop anwering me, if they answer at all. But not because I'm too boring, but probably because I'm too interesting, or rather too special. Most people are normal and often boring, and they are not interested in more specific topics like math, politics, programming, languages, or whatever. Maybe I'm kind of boring about these less interesting topics. No idea how to smalltalk properly, etc.
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  48. I understand expectations and acceptance very well. I play Sonic games.
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  49. The title already sounds interesting. I also felt some kind of existential dread since I'm somewhere between 5 and 10. The first time when seeing the stars in the background of Zelda 3 on the mountain. I thought things like „What if the world didn't exist? Why does anything exist at all?“ and since then had many sleepless nights. Questions like that scared me so much, I almost felt like I left my own and wanted this all to be a dream, but I knew it wasn't and even if it was a dream, it was a fact about reality I could not deny. And shortly after that moment, I was exhausted and I just felt nothing about it for some time. I often didn't even know, what the problem was, after the feeling was gone. I didn't have it often. Only every few months mostly. Sometimes I thought, it's gone, but it just came back a few months later when thinking about questions like this. I never tried to avoid to think about such stuff, when it was in my mind. I never suppress any feelings and just lock them away, if I have a choice. It's just a problem, and I had to find a solution. But now I really think, I'm over it. I didn't have it for some years already, I guess. And the last few times, I had it, wasn't as bad. I started to like this fear. Like a weird fetish. I think, my rational site has taken control over me (I turned from INFP to INTP), maybe also to protect me from thoughts like this? Rationally there is no real problem. It's purely emotional, so why even care? No idea, if the video is even about this topic :P
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  50. 35:35 I don't get what's the almost objective problem with animal cruelty. If we both are cruel to animals, what's the problem?
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  51.  @enmemoriamedia4957  That's not what Dr. K would say. He doesn't just say his opinion. He'd rather just ask "Why do you think, the stuff you did, is bad?"
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  52. 2:24 I can not have a phone. I also do not have a phone. At least when you talk about smartphones. Technically I have a smartphone, but it's a special Linux smartphone and I never use it.
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  53. Maybe he always talks about things in his videos, which will cause similar questions in many people, which he is going to make the next video about.
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  54. Isn't doing what you want one of the most masculine things? So if you try to fulfill masculine stereotypes because of other people, that's a very inmasculine thing, right?
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  55. 5:40 Wouldn't work on me. I wouldn't pay for disposable items in the first place. But if I like some game and want some DLC, I would buy it, even if it's expensive. I wouldn't buy it if it wasn't sure if I really get it.
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  56. Pax? The seventh prince?
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  57. Watching your videos reminds me of Spongebob, since I played a lot of this Spongebob switch game while watching your videos.
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  58. 20:04 I'm happy my "mansion" doesn't have Windows on it :P
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  59. Sounds like capitalism works. Workers force companies to do meaningful stuff. The communist revolution without being oppressed by socialist regimes has begun :)
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  60. I should do more of this meditation stuff again. About 10 years ago I just went into some meditative state while traveling. And I was able to enforce lucid dreams, which your description of surfing matches very well. About two times, I still was fully conscious when I fell asleep and went into a lucid dream state, which is a very weird feeling. I want to be able to do this again.
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  61. Some years ago, I often did this kind of meditation in the morning to fall asleep again and get lucid dreams. I also got a pressure at my forehead. It's where the third eye chakra is, which is related to such experiences. But it normally hasn't been painful. Maybe you just haven't gotten enough sleep?
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  62. The title and the preview image already relate to me a lot.
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  63. Now I'm convinced I have ADHD.
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  64. 10:00 He sounds like just a normal person, but he is more selfconscious about it.
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  65. Is an Out of Body Experience similar to riding a carousel, which is also a German phrase for the experience when being drunk, since it also feels similar.
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  66. The initial meme describes me besides of three points: - I don't have any self esteem issues, I'm pretty confident in myself most of the time - I still care about where my life is going, there are a lot of things I want to accomplish - I'm already 27 Everything else is pretty much on point.
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  67. 12:15 I always have the impulse to order something new instead of Schnitzel, and when I order something else I always regret not having ordered Schnitzel.
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  68. I only heard "new leaf" once before: It's an animal crossing game...
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  69. 4:20 I know something similar. If I just like it, I don't get addicted. I'm happy after a few episodes or after finishing it. It also happens with food. When I eat flips with reduced calories, I kind of think it wasn't that good, and eat some more hoping the next will be better. When they are really delicious, I'm sometimes happy before they are all gone, and eating more would just reproduce some feeling which can't be improved anyway.
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  70. Why should anyone use voice chat in games anyway? :P
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  71. Would a video be fine if you replaced the word "Karen(s)" by "Jew(s)" or "Nigger(s)"?
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  72. I think, this reddit moderator example is a good one. Women often take care of most stuff. Men often just do, what they want. Sometimes the stuff men want to do also makes them rich, sometimes they don't get anything. After understanding these classical roles of men and women, I started to like them. Women often seem to want to have a man, who has an own personality, own plans, and can care for them. They look carefully to find one, who meets these standards and will then care for the simple stuff and support him, so the man can focus on the important and complicated stuff.
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  73. Am I now misogynic?
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  74. 20:55 That's why I'm not as motivated at work in the morning anymore since I do home office. I have "car thoughts".
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  75. 41:00 Doesn't sound too reasonable to increase the age. If the age is 20, they get it at 20, if the age is 30, they get it at 30. At least this would make sense. Decreasing would rather have different effects. A 12yo wouldn't buy a gun, even if he could. He probably wouldn't even have enough money.
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  76. I can totally relate to that. I also always try to build mansions instead of a simple shack. I also think, I'm capable of it, but maybe I should build a few more shacks first. I'm a game developer, in private, I try to do almost everything myself. I don't use engines, I use a few libraries, but nothing too specific. I use my own math and physics, I use a pretty basic rendering library, not even that basic, but at least no engines, where everything is designed to work together. So I have to find out many things myself, and sometimes also have a look at how other people do it. I'm pretty perfectionist about it. I'm often stuck because I want to do it the right way. Sometimes I do it in some way and then I recognize it doesn't work as expected, and I'm stuck again. But I already created some components, which can be reused and are probably superior to the stuff most people use.
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  77. I drink coffee or coke only every few weeks or months, so when I drink it, it can be extreme. That's how I kind of conditioned myself not to drink coke too often.
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  78. 17:15 I also like less feminine girls...
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  79.  @Auxified  Thanks. I should think about that. But don't think, I'd ever look up to Jimmy. Just saying, I came to similar conclusions about this point.
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  80. I wouldn't say, lucid dreaming is the opposite of meditation or that you take control over your dream. It's like experiencing situations as if you were awake. Normally you can't do things you can't do in reality and often the situations are pretty normal. You can try to change the dream to your will, but this will probably destroy it. Especially if you try things, that are unrealistic. But if you don't stay focused, it will turn into a normal dream and you lose control and might also lose knowledge that it's a dream. It's possible to do things, which are plausible to you. For example if you are in some room, you can leave the room and go to another room or go outside. But you can't just start flying around or get some cute girl. But if there is something interesting to do, for example some girl is nearby, you can try to interact with her. Trying to do too much yourself will probably destroy the dream, though. You can still get some custom experiences using what I call dream logic. If you think, something might happen, it will happen. Your wishes and fears will become real, if they seem plausible. I walk outside, when it's dark and think "I hope, there are no wolves outside". Then the wolves were already attacking and eating me. This dream logic is basically how normal dreams work. But if you at least know, that you are in a dream, and don't want to waste too much concentration and destabilize your dream, you might think about what would be plausible to happen in the current situation, which you would like to experience, and it will happen. The best thing is, every emotion is intensified in a dream. So good experiences will feel even better. But emotions also make it difficult to concentrate and destabilize the dream again. Sometimes it's also possible to fly, just because I already had some flying dreams, so it might make sense to be able to fly while dreaming. But I can't enforce it. I can't just say, this has to be a dream, so I'll just fly, it's more like I know I'm dreaming, so it would make sense if I could fly. At least if I jump out of the window. At least that's my experience of it.
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  81. I'm totally a wind. I always have a bunch of unfinished projects, I sometimes forget about for some time. Then I work on something for a few hours days, weeks or months until I'm finished or get stuck and then I give up and return to it after some days, weeks, months or years, if I don't forget totally (but I can't remember this ever happened to me :P).
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  82. But after hearing the other types, they might also match me in some situations. Especially the stone type. I'm pretty self critical, and know, it will take a while, and I want to do everything in the correct way.
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  83. I already realized this loop of having no friends and being overly attached to a friend long before I got into psychology (watching your channel). When I meet a new friend, I'm overly confident. If I really like them, I sooner or later drive them away. And if I don't like them as much, I lose interest myself. So if they don't try to stay in contact, we won't stay friends for long. So I only have three kinds of contacts: - forced (family, work, hobbies) - I really like them (not always stable) - they really like to be with me (not always that close)
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  84. I don't agree at all, that I should stop comparison to other people. I should compare my work with the work of other people and try to do better. But I shouldn't be sad if it doesn't work. I just didn't do it yet. And I don't care and shoudn't care about what other people think about me.
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  85. I'm not sure, what to do in such a situation. Don't write back seems bad, writing long responses seems bad, so writing short messages every few months seems like the best solution, right? I also think about writing about the problems I have with her in text messages. But I don't think, it's a good idea. I want to talk to her about more serious stuff in person. She probably just sees me as a friend, and I don't want to make a huge problem out of not getting messages back. On the other hand, it's really annoying not to get answers. I wouldn't care if she clearly tells me, she doesn't like to be with me anymore. I've already let her go some time ago, after she didn't answer anymore for some time. I first was sad and then thought, it has to be over. I was fine with it. But after half a year, I thought, I'll do some boring smalltalk and after some time we met again. And I realized, how much I like her. I almost forgot about that... So should I write her, how annoying this can be to me? Should I tell her, I'm not really interested in this friendship anymore, if she mostly doesn't even answer? Should I tell her about my fears? What I think, could be the real reason for not writing and meeting as often. Or should I even tell her, how important this friendship is to me? That she's the only girl, I meet in person. That she's the only person I can talk about basically anything without being judged? And the only person I meet, who seems to have similar political views as me?
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  86. Luke Smith also just talked about that depersonalization problem.
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  87. I thought, I'd definitely be Vata, but according to this list (20:45) I'm definitely Kapha.
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  88. I have a very high frustration tolerance. Does this mean, I don't have ADHD or might this also just mean, video games helped me to get over frustration tolerance?
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  89. 9:05 Oh no, I don't have frustration tolerance, I'm just emotion blind :P
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  90. I don't get why money is the problem. Isn't that problem, that many people don't have friendship and family? And if there is a way to compensate that using money isn't a bad thing. I don't think, it will help most people in the long term. It's just a fantasy, but maybe a bit more real than games. At least monetizing sex sounds like a more useful practice to me. It's not a fantasy, it's real sex, but without most of the sometimes cumbersome social implications.
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  91.  @SirMordred524  Maybe someone with knowledge about human psychology could explain this behavior ;)
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  92. Did I get this pimple because of this meditation? I just realized it about half an hour afterwards...
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  93. I know, how to start a project. I already did that many times successfully. But I don't really know, how to finish a project because I normally don't do that. That's probably part of the reason, why I have more motivation to start new projects. Sometimes it's necessary to have a goal in mind, sometimes I just get motivated from the initial idea. Often what I do leads to nothing, but that's not true. Maybe I can reuse something I created along the way. Or maybe I will have a better understanding when I start a new project the next time. I might also continue work on some old project after some time and make new progress and also have the initial motivation again, since I now know more accurately, how I do it and what I want to achieve. But sometimes I see some old one and just want to restart because it's not usable. Or I try to use it because I don't want to do everything I already did, again, and then get stuck because modifying is almost more difficult than starting over, because I want to do it in a way, so that the next time I use it, I will have an easier time, and maybe create a few useful libraries in the process... (I'm getting too much into detail already)
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  94. I don't agree about dual relationships. The people I work with should be the people I like to spend my time with :)
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  95.  @roselynnwood4657  Not always, but mostly I am.
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  96.  @roselynnwood4657  Thanks. I'm not used to anyone even reading this stuff, especially when my comments escalate like this :P
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  97. Why did this video recommended to me just after I left a multiple week long flow state. I didn't even realize I was in one before I left it.
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  98. 50:50 I also had this situation, where I just had to randomly laugh while meditating. I was just sitting still doing nothing, and after some minutes my mind made up some short animation of a pencil moving towards some small elastic surface, similar to a trampoline, but just about 2 cm Radius. The pencil touched it and stretched it a bit. And that was basically it. I didn't think much of it. And then I suddenly just had to start laughing. Probably because this animation was so absurd. (I can't remember the exact animation, maybe there was no pencil, but you get the point)
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  99. Jimmy is a bit excentric, but his points are valid.
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  100. After some time, unlike his first impressions, he even seems to be pretty smart and educated.
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  101. I probably have burnout according to your description. I often have a lack of motivation and stay at home most of the time and doing the same time. I kind of like my work. It's the job I wanted as a child (gamedev). Not everything is perfect, but it's a good game we work on, I have a lot of freedom on how I work, my boss trusts me, I don't even work full time. But I'm often not as productive as I want to. I get distracted and can't concentrate. I'm tired etc. I'm still getting things done, but often I think, I could have done it faster. I probably just need more sleep. Sometimes I go to parties, do some workout or work on private projects, and when I get started I often like it, but most of the time, I'm just too tired and unmotivated to even get started, so I eat, watch videos, play games and watch porn at night.
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  102. 12:30 I think, I realized that myself. I often have many unhealthy habits at once (not enough sleep, no sports, always sitting in my room, watching YouTube while playing video games, eating unhealthy, watching porn). When I stop one at a time, the others get stronger. I don't necessarily need to fix all of it at once, but fixing at least two of them is necessary to get out of such a behavior. If enough bad behaviors are fixed, the other ones weaken automatically. But it's most important to replace the bad stuff, I'm doing with healthier stuff. So sport is a good start, especially when going outside for it. It directly fixes the sports problem, and besides that I can't play video games or eat unhealthy when I'm not at home. But also starting or making progress in personal projects. If I find something, that's more fun than my bad behaviors, I often think "Maybe I should watch a bit of porn again", but then I often think, I still want to finish something, or I want to be fit for working more the next day, so I don't even get that interested in following some on my unhealthier habits. But the difficult part is to find a project, that's long time engaging.
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