Comments by "p11" (@porky1118) on "Dr. K Chats with @MichaelReeves about Existential Dread" video.

  1. The title already sounds interesting. I also felt some kind of existential dread since I'm somewhere between 5 and 10. The first time when seeing the stars in the background of Zelda 3 on the mountain. I thought things like „What if the world didn't exist? Why does anything exist at all?“ and since then had many sleepless nights. Questions like that scared me so much, I almost felt like I left my own and wanted this all to be a dream, but I knew it wasn't and even if it was a dream, it was a fact about reality I could not deny. And shortly after that moment, I was exhausted and I just felt nothing about it for some time. I often didn't even know, what the problem was, after the feeling was gone. I didn't have it often. Only every few months mostly. Sometimes I thought, it's gone, but it just came back a few months later when thinking about questions like this. I never tried to avoid to think about such stuff, when it was in my mind. I never suppress any feelings and just lock them away, if I have a choice. It's just a problem, and I had to find a solution. But now I really think, I'm over it. I didn't have it for some years already, I guess. And the last few times, I had it, wasn't as bad. I started to like this fear. Like a weird fetish. I think, my rational site has taken control over me (I turned from INFP to INTP), maybe also to protect me from thoughts like this? Rationally there is no real problem. It's purely emotional, so why even care? No idea, if the video is even about this topic :P
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