Comments by "DefaultFlame" (@DefaultFlame) on "KaiserBauch"
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Yeah, keeping myself updated on the news, about everything not just mass migration, lead to me having multiple nervous breakdowns in 2022 and 2023, leading to depression and losing/quitting my job. I'm currently on antidepressans and unemployed.
A large part of that was the state of the world and my own country (Sweden), and the other part was my aging boss. He used to be very hard but fair, but with age, declining health, declining energy, and a declining memory "fair" went out the window. He used to have his foibles and less pleasant parts but they had previously been outweighed by the positives. Then over the last five years or so the positives slowly went away and the less pleasant parts amplified.
After he saw me having a breakdown (I'd managed to keep the first three out of his sight) he had me tested for benzodiazepine abuse (can cause mood swings), which came out negative of course, and I just couldn't take it anymore. I spent a few months on sick leave while slowly recovering from depression while my employer tried to find me a job away from my boss. I also stopped trying to keep up to date on anything related to news or politics after my last breakdown.
They failed in finding another position during those months and in the end I was offered the options of going back to working under my boss or taking an offer of three months where I recieve full pay but don't have to come in to work and quit at the end.
For my mental health and to regain the ability to feel even a shred of positive emotion I picked the latter. I might be unemployed but I'm not suicidal anymore.
I sometimes talk with the people that still work there and I hear that he's just gotten worse since I left.
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