Comments by "Grey Matters" (@o0GrayMatters0o) on "YouTuber Turned Mass Murderer: The Insane Case of Randy Stair" video.

  1. people walk by street performers all the time @Yourworstfears . it's not that you're unseen or unheard, it's just that people are living out their own lives in their own heads on their way to wherever they're running to escape being present. imagine if everyone felt like they were the only real character and everybody else was an npc not paying attention to them. we're in different times, these are spiritual experiences not only physical ones. the battle rages more now than even a decade ago. the beast is afoot and its not interested in sharing or cohabitation with man. fight for your mind. fight for your soul.
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  2. so how are you now Kai? and how old are you?
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  3.  @KaiLucasZachary  i'm not some creepy internet weirdo trying to get personal information out of you specifically. i normally wouldn't ask a person in person, but online, it's hard to know who i'm even talking to and where my place is if anything. i've spoken to traumatized war vets about their life experiences, i've spoken with kids that lived in group homes about theirs. mom's whose son's unlifed themselves. i've cleaned up the blood spatter off of a wall of a unit in a complex i used to live in for a long time where a guy took his own life out of nowhere. quiet guy that worked at a local hardware store- had 10's of thousands of dollars on his bank receipts- a poem i'll never forget talking about how this life used to be to how it is, and how he felt like a stranger or traveler or disconnected observer to it all so the bottle took his leisure hours when he wasn't dutifully working full time. i've seen a few dead bodies. trauma comes in many forms and all are valid. of course age is relevant. everything is relevant during in a topic like this. time is usually experience. i'm not saying it's any less serious if a kid says she's gonna unlife herself and an adult says it, because there's very little room for error. anyway, interpersonal interactions and exchanges vary in tone and vulnerability depending upon many subtle or obvious similarities or differences. in the real world, not online, people behave differently when they interact with kids, or peers, or their elders. societal and hierarchical factors change the dynamics of interpersonal communication as well. anonymity makes most internet users snarky and smart ass know it alls with fragile and frail ego's and self-esteems that they confuse for winning some game or argument of one up.AA's and N.A.'s are the worst, full of competitive people trying to one up each other in drama, but nothing in this natural physical world stays the same for long. people change as these factors change. i love people, but i hate people online, especially on social media platforms where people speak from anonymous avatars. there's very little in the way of authentic vulnerability and honesty. people and their intents and purposes man- even when they're good sometimes they come off as an imposition. but yeah, trauma is not the blunt force exerted in a moment, but more of the hurt and limitations the traumatized has to endure during and afterward. your picture says you're not 10, but you're not 40. other than that, it doesn't tell me enough. time changes people intra-personally- from the inside out too. time and experience is our greatest teacher. experience and adversity change people. the world changes people. the world changes in time too. somebody that lived through the 60's has a different experience than a kid who's never known life without the internet, or the normalization of war or other things. kids these days know a much different world than in the 80's even. i'm 40. i work with kids. a kid told me he was sue is side all. it annoyed me more for the fact that i knew he was joking and i was gonna have to take it seriously because speaking of harming oneself or another mandates a mandated reporter to share the knowledge of the incident. i had to act even though i knew he said it in a flippant and playful way, almost as if for a laugh, albeit a little under his breath. i knew full well he had no intention of unlife-ing himself. i'm an empath. i can feel what people are saying behind their words. not so much online though because sometimes crazy or deceptive people can hide very well behind masks of sincerity, on either side of sane, or happy, or smart, or whatever. but in real life, energy says everything. i've known him since 3rd or 4th grade. his background has the flags though, so before i officially reported him i quietly confronted him about it and heart checked him first. i got a true feeling for if he's actually ever once even thought about it and it became clear to both of us that it wasn't a thought nevermind an option, i knew it and he knew it, but i told him what i had to do and he understood. he knew he fucked up. i've written a suicide letter before, as a joke. it got intercepted. i'll never forget it. i was in 2nd or 3rd grade. everybody got involved. this kid's in 8th. he knew the can of worms he opened, and he was sorry and back peddling all the way from the start with the psychologist. i know his story though, so i told him if he was gonna do anything to wait till he was 25. this is a traumatic period of time for the world, for kids in their development stages especially... again, i keep trying to picture who I'm speaking with but i can't get a clear image... i dont even know your story. maybe i never will. i can flutter by though and catch and call a few things out though before we pass and go our own ways. do you watch informative videos online? lemme share one with you. maybe we can discuss it.
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  4. the presence of addiction or use of beverage or substance becomes it's own trauma causing trauma, like constantly trying to dig yourself out of a hole or catch a breath swimming down. lemme know now if you are sue is side all so i can fuck off and mind my own business because i'd rather not go poking my stick in other people's shit if it's just gonna cause a stink if you know what i mean? not looking to trip an exposed wire ignite a loose cannon with any words... i'd only say tell someone in your physical and personal life not online
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  5. besides that, we can sure as shit dig into it. believe it or not, the controllers of this sick society are traumatizing kids on purpose, to use that trauma to manipulate their thoughts, words, and intentions. it's a well known fact that trauma causes docility and even mental illness and subservience if inflicted with intent. it all starts young, at home and in the schools too:
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  6. and definitely not like some fuckin' coward who robbed people of their chance to experience the damn thing for themselves. anyone that robs anothers innocence or opportunity to spend their try and time and innocence as they see fit in their own lives is better off dead. fuckin coward. but mercy and pity and love to the victims and condolences to the affected.
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