Comments by "Furious Destroyah" (@furiousdestroyah9999) on "Dr. Scott Eilers" channel.

  1. Yeah and same. I'm 23 currently 24 soon-ish and the only thing I have to look forward to is sleeping. There is no place I'm welcome to go to and nobody that wants me near them, so I either just sit on the internet to kill time or sleep.
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  2. Same, though I'm still in my 20s currently. Nobody cares and there is no help, only expectations
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  3. I'm so terrified of this happening to me, especially since I finally found a potential way out of this lifelong depression. I just need to gather the courage to pursue it and then hope it works out I suppose, otherwise I don't know how I'm gonna avoid this situation.
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  4. Dark souls but you only have 1 hp, can't equip anything but a broken sword and there are no bonfires
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  5. You feel lonely and your heart feels like it's slowly cracking more and more
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  6. @lambtypeguy-cd4tp For me it was falling in love. The unfortunate thing is that whether it actually works or not doesn't even depend all that much on me. I can try but I'm gonna need a shit ton of luck in order for it to work out. I can say with certainty though that if it does work out then I've pretty much beat depression, probably for life.
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  7. This video hit really hard. I've always felt empty, incomplete, in a void, exactly as you described it ever since I can remember. I've never loved anybody and lived my entire life under the words "I don't need anybody else". Well 2 months ago I met a person and I noticed something strange; as time went by I started feeling weird around them, little by little, I started feeling happy when I saw them smile, when I heard their voice, when they would talk or look at me, when we laughed together, when I was near them, but would also occasionally feel even worse when nothing really happened. Fast forward to today and these feelings have only grown stronger. This is the first time I've ever wanted to know more about somebody else, wanted to be near them or wanted to speak/interact with them. Is this Limerance? Other people on the internet have said as much but yesterday I also found another comment under a video that said "limerance can turn into love". I don't think it's possible for these feelings to be fake. Without these feelings I'd still be the shell of a human being I used to be, and I feel like I could be so much more if they just gave me a chance. They are literally melting my frozen heart and I feel like this is ultimately a good thing, something closer to love than it is to limerance and is still changing. I'm currently gathering the courage to ask them out, because I really want to get to know them better, which up until 2 months ago was something I'd never see myself even consider doing.
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  8.  @dotcassilles1488  Does it really change though? I've never had any reason to live before any of this. Now instead of it changing, I'm just back to having nothing yet again...
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  9. Same. Heck, I don't think I've even experienced genuine happiness until very recently, which was the first time I've ever developed feelings for another person
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  10. I used to be like that. I believed that nothing would ever get better. Then I met a person that made me feel alive. Being with them made me feel as happy as I've never felt before in my entire life. Then they left me and now I'm in the worst condition I've ever been, just barely managing to survive each day. I pray that they really make assisted s**** legal one day because I can't quite gather the courage to do it by myself.
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  11. I also don't really have any kind of grand goal or dream or anything. For the most part I've never really wanted anything in my life, I was existing moreso as a spectator than as an actual performer. Then I met somebody, the first person I've ever genuinely enjoyed spending time with, to the point where I'd drop anything just to be with them. We didn't spend all that much time together, but they truly made me feel alive. Now they're gone and I'm back to square 0, this time with yet another hole I can't fill. I thought maybe they could become my reason for living when I had nothing else but I suppose not
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  12. I've had anhedonia/depression since I could remember. Some time ago I fell in love with a person, which made me feel feelings I didn't think I could feel, and it still does, but that person isn't even really interested in getting to know me at all (not even as a friend), despite my best attempts, so I don't know what to do at this point. I don't want to lose them and go back to a life of merely existing, but what can I even do? Every attempt I make to be with them is met with "I'm busy", all the hours I spend thinking of what to do, say and sitting in front of the send button for hours on end just end up being wasted. Am I just supposed to give up and kms here?
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