Comments by "Ida Larsen" (@idalarsen2540) on "Woman Confronts Possibility She Is Experiencing a Tortured Reality as a Result of Child Abuse Trauma" video.

  1. She's most likely not paranoid or cheating. Smh. After experiencing what she did, it's common to dissociate completely. You can get "flashbacks 2.0", kinda. Ya know, "regular" flashbacks and reoccuring nightmares are typical traits of PTSD. Some people tho can get those symptoms in more extreme ways. People experience PTSD differently, nobody have the same experience. It's very likely that she completely dissociates, "leaves" her body, and enters into altered realities where she experience her trauma over again, with no control over it. Just because you don't get it, doesn't mean it's not real. I doubt she's actually still getting abused, but I don't either think she makes it up at all. Perception is reality, and her trauma has become her reality. Surviving sexual abuse is terrible and traumatizing regardless, but when it happens while you're a child, especially when you're a young child, it can become so much harder to cope. Children don't have the mental capacity to actually cope. Sexual abuse can really damage you for years or decades, sometimes even throughout your whole life (often dependant on the severity, age when it happened, frequency etc.). It's absolutely terrible. Y'all are jumping to too many conclusions too fast. I'm assuming none of you who thinks she's made up this elaborate story so that she can cheat, have never ever come close to experiencing sexual abuse.
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  2. That's absolutely very true, and many people don't understand this at all. I've been struggling with this myself a lot. I've been r*ped twice, once at 14 y/o (by a 18 y/o) and once at 18 y/o (by a 44 y/o). It's terrible to dissociate like that. It's a total nightmare. Many people refuse to believe me when I explain what sometimes happens to me, which makes me feel so extremely alone. It's been a few years now since the last one happened as I'm 23 y/o now, but it still haunts me, and I'm sure it will for many, many more years to come. I can't say that it hasn't gotten better over time, but it's going slowly. I'm not getting any help. No therapy, no medications, nothing. I'm chronically afraid and feel like I'm always at the verge of crying, with little relief ever. The only relief I can get my hands on are drugs, so that's become my solution. I understand that drugs only help temporarily, while only making it all worse in the long run, but.. I don't feel like I have a choice. It's such a double edged sword. It helps right then and there, but it'll only cut me even deeper the more I keep self-medicating. I've ended up dead due to an overdose on fentanyl-laced heroin, rivotril, oxazepam, xanax, valium, ghb and alcohol. Thankfully, someone got to me in time and managed to get some life back into me by doing extreme CPR for a very long time, until the ambulance came and took over and brought me to the ICU on life support. All my ribs were broken, which obiviously hurt a lot for some weeks after, but dang.. I'd take that over death most days, absolutely. You're (most likely) not doing CPR right if you don't break at least one rib. That's just part of the process, and kinda the point. Well, the point is to push so hard that you're "manually" beating the heart for that person recieving it. So I'm just saying, if you ever have to do CPR, don't be afraid to push hard/break something! That person's dead anyway, so it's not like you're doing any harm. On the other hand, what will do someone harm, is if you don't do it at all for whatever reason. That decreases their risk of surviving a great deal. Also, before doing CPR, make sure the person actually have no pulse. You will harm someone if you do CPR on someone that's simply unconcious. So it's important to check their pulse first, while you're calling an ambulance. The dispatcher will guide you on what to do. ((Sorry, I just had to. Many people are afraid of doing CPR, but don't be, as long as you can't feel any pulse. CPR saves lives!! You'll most likely recieve a "thanku!!" if you save them, despite how many ribs you crack. Better to have broken ribs than being dead!)) Anyways. The other side of the sword is that without drugs, I'd probably be in too much pain to manage to keep going in life. So, what saves me is what kills me. I hate being so terribly haunted by this, as it feels like they're still winning. They still hold power over my life, despite the second monster that assaulted me (for two damn days straight, nearly killing me) being in prison now, since I filed charges and managed to get him convicted (which is truly a blessing, considering how many victims/survivors don't even get their case reviewed. Most people are not believed, which is extremely sad. That sets such a bad precedent, practically giving abusers the message that they'll most likely get away with even the most heinous assaults. So, that was truly a bittersweet victory, as there really aren't any winners in the end. I don't know what to do anymore. I need help, but nobody's willing to reach their hands out. All I get is doors slammed in my face.
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