Comments by "Allison James" (@allisonjames2923) on "Dr. Scott Eilers"
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It’s incredible how much your world shrinks when you’re in this kind of shutdown mode. I live in a lovely beachside town, in a 2 br house with a garden & I work for the ambulance … but my world has basically shrunk to one side of my bed except when I force myself to go to work or go to the shops. And within this tiny space, I spend so much time criticising myself, being disappointed in myself & angry that I’m finding it so hard to do anything, that it’s a pretty uncomfortable place to be. I know I feel better when I achieve something - anything. There are loads of things I want to do, before I even think of looking at my long list of things I have to do. Things I know I’ll enjoy. Yet it still feels so horrendously overwhelming to start doing any of them. I wish it was easier to turn my brain’s habit of berating me towards appreciating me & encouraging me. But I need something to change. So the first thing I’ll celebrate is that I watched this video & applaud myself for that, even if it feels a bit silly. But it’s the first step to seeing my way out of this dark lonely, tiny hole. I will celebrate that I reached out to other people, including you, to let you know that none of us are alone even if we feel that way. I truly do understand how you’re feeling if you feel this way. It’s not everything I want to achieve by any means. But for now, it’s enough. Sending you warm hugs & hoping you find your way out of this frozen wasteland too 😊
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