Comments by "Sirena Spades" (@SirenaSpades) on "Dr. Scott Eilers" channel.

  1. I noticed a lot of people in the commens are saying they only keep going because of their kids. A lof people don't have kids. I don't have kids. At least 20% of women my age don't have kids, and more and more younger women are not having kids. I've never wanted kids and I'm glad I never had them. I don't think kids would make a difference in how I feel or don't feel, it's just a focus of energy. Also, personally speaking, I wouldn't have had kids just to feel better, it would have irritated me a lot.
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  2. This is me. I have both. Blackout. I have felt this way since my late 30's. I've had a psychologist for 20 years or so (same one) for another condition. I have no enjoyment.. no friends. Nothing.
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  3. Gosh, that sounds great!
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  4. Not a fan of BPD myself, after I was dangerously stalked by a man with BPD. Not just fun and games stalked like the MeToo girls. These people are more dangerous than psychopaths.
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  5. I have an issue with online therapy. I've had the same therapist for almost 20 years (psychologist) and during the pandemic he went to online therapy. It's not the same at all, as going into the office and sitting with a real person. Even though I know he IS a real person but on screen, the whole effect is negated for me. Pandemic is over, he's still onscreen only, he doesn't plan to return to in-office visits. :/ At some point they will realize it's not working, but meanwhile they can see more patients and make more money, I guess.
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  6. You are describing anxiety. Anhedonia is a blackout of feeling.
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  7. I don't actually have anxiety... I have bipolar II delusions. But it's a lot easier in social situations to call it "anxiety" than to say, "look, I have bipolar II (which no one has ever heard of), and I cannot tell the difference between real life and delusions, and I think people are following me/after me/etc, and other things..."
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  8. If you watched the video, it's the PERCEPTION of mistreatment or abuse .. because of your constant rage.
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  9. I have bipolar II and the whole point is rare to no hypermania with depressive episodes. Never had any pupil constriction/dilation except at the eye doctor...
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  10. Ok. I like how you put this. I will try a few things. But what do you think about medications? I've been in psychotherapy for 20+ years, but I've also been on meds, what if the meds are keeping me from feeling anything. I have an appointment this week, I'm going to ask. I used to go and have fun, do lots of things, I don't even have hobbies or anything. They are so scared of mania I can't even have fun.
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  11. Just because you have an injury, doesn't mean you have it. You could, of course.
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  12. Wow. This is me.
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