Comments by "Diana Pennepacker" (@dianapennepacker6854) on "Howtown"
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I was considered as good as dead in 2022 when I went to go quit drinking for about 4 years. Before then I drank a handful times a year.
I went from drinking wine as a server with guests. To a glass of wine to be better at my job, to a glass sleeping. Or when stressed.
That placed closed. So then I eventually switched to a shot of vodka. Covid hit while I worked at a pharmacy, and I got supet sick from that. No gloves or mask!
Anyway eventually had enough went to quit. Was sent from the detox to the ER where I was told I had basically days or a week max to live. After a year of being in the hospital I got out.
Can't beleive I celebrated 2025. I was a functional alcoholic till about the last year.
Mind you I did drink a lot for my body weight by the end with a liter of vodka a day chasing it with box wine.
Drinking isnt worth it. I generally beleived I only had some damage, and I could drink for twenty years as I've known many alcoholics.
I use to hate doctors. Now it is a full time job seeing em. All the symptoms I self medicated for are worse with many new ones.
My liver disease caused my kidneys to fail. My organ failure is putting stess on my cardiovascular. I cannot work due to issues like dangerous blood pressure. I do not urinate. I do not like food, and it is a struggle to eat.
Most of all I am like an eldery patient now, and broke. Dying is expensive. I am useless to others, and still need help sometimes.
With that said I am greatful to be alive even if it is a pathetic existence.
I didnt care when the doctors told me the news. I rolled with. Yet seeing my mom get the news that day will forever scar me for being such a selfish prik. Could not even hug her saying it would be alright.
Heck for the longest time I was too weak to get on a transplant list.
Doctors have no idea why I am alive. I am exceedingly told it was rare for anyone to survive, and somehow improve.
Listen to me. There are better ways. Alcohol is not the cause of your problems. It is your off the shelf treatment to deal with your problems.
Find a doctor or help that can guide you. You really gotta search. Lots of bad ones, but finding good ones is life changing.
I use to think I was the healthiest as I worked the hardest, and longest. Nah, I worked my body into the ground.
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