Comments by "Ida Larsen" (@idalarsen2540) on "Dr. Phil"
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It's weird just how much I can relate to EVERYTHING she said (except being famous ofc).
I know very well I had a bad and frightening childhood, but whenever people (including CPS, the police and such during my teen years) asked me what was so wrong, what had happened, why I was so scared and such, I had no coherent answer. I just put up a brick wall, or started crying and sobbing hysterically, almost as if I went back to a very vulnerable child like-state, just like how I was as a (very) young child.
I knew deep within that something was wrong, that something had happened. I just couldn't figure out what it was. So, people thought I was just another run away-teen, doing rebellious "teen-stuff".
That hurt me so bad and made me doubt myself and my entire existence, only making everything worse. I ended up homeless, severly addicted to drugs including injecting heroin. I OD'd several times, one time I barely made it. Someone found me, cracked all my ribs doing CPR (which is really good - it means they really did it right. I was dead anyway, so I was blessed af being able to wake up at all, despite being on life support for a few days). I am forever grateful to the people that saved my life. I even jokingly thanked them for breaking all my ribs. I was fortunate enough to meet them, and they were fortunate enough to meet me again - not because I'm special or whatever, but so that they could see living proof of their hard work and heroism considering that I'd be dead if it wasn't for them acting fast and logically. Trust me when I say that group hug we had lasted for a loooooooong time with loads of tears and sobbing from all of us.
Anyway. I'm not diagnosed with DID, but it's reckognized medically that I do suffer from childhood trauma as well as severe adult trauma. PTSD, anxiety, depression and drug addiction. Possibly more, I'm working with a pshychiatrist on possible diagnoses. Not just to put yet another label on me, but so that I can get the help I need. DID is in fact a possibility. We don't know for sure yet. Due to my long term, hardcore drug usage, it's a lot harder to separate one experience and/or symptom from the other. It's a work in progress. I hope I don't have any more psychological issues than I already have, but if I do, I absolutely want to know so that I can understand myself better, and make life better in the long run.
It just baffled me how relatable her story is to mine, despite our differences.
If anyone bothered reading this, thank you so much.
If anyone reading this are struggling with whatever it may be, I hope that you get help. I hope you have, or get support. I wish you well, and a good life. I wish you'll be able to feel like you're thriving, not just surviving. You deserve it. You really do. Best wishes from me 💚💚💚👊
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